My heavenly prison.

Never thought ’bout being there some place you won’t get ever out, even if you might do its a so long to come true you might be dead might be mad when it comes by???
I never thought, never imagined I’ll be there; that place where it’s all looking the same.
Walls, days, minutes, every breathe every move, all going around & goes back around in a god only knows how long.
I look at it as a prison some people think its heaven, they call me ungrateful, they call me selfish, they see just the face I’ve worn every day no wonder it looks so ugly now.

I tried to escape, I did try hard but that’s not something for free.

They will ask me to pay, to see the world with colors, they make me pay to breathe, even the smile will cost more if it’s true the one people will actually believe. Not enough they want me to pay again, paying to write paying to see the sun light.

I thought listen to what the rocks say & be happy how things go, never my heart-felt that bad never felt so low.

Again, they call me blind, they call me empty; again, they ugliness of what they created breaks me.

I’d smile, looking like a child seeing a flower for the first time.

I’d stand, fight like soldier already  knowing the taste of iron & blood.

I’d mute, listen to the sound of beauty listen to a tear breaking through fear.

That’s a story of a life, not just my life.

Might be you or them, might be tomorrow might be then.

Losing & winning, I can’t tell the difference.

But who am I to say, I’m just a weird bored & trying to play.


He is a dream [it can be just a poem]

MY FIRST POEM so tell me how am I doing????
Number One, you better listen from number two,

Number two, ’cause boy I won’t change my point of view.

Number three, so if you really want me,

Number four, here’s what you have to be.

Kind, smart, and strong,

You stand up for the wrong.

I won’t talk but you understand,

You’re never ashamed of walking holding my hand.

You get life and me so well,

I’m crazy but you say they can go to .

You respect women and kids,

You never care what’s in others heads.

You never forget to say goodnight,

Even if all day we just did fight.

You know what you want and you want me,

You want forever and forever it’ll be.

You’re never afraid to say sorry,

but boy, you don’t have to worry.

You never sleep when I’m sick,

‘Cause to you I’m not just a normal chick.

When I cry you die to cry,

Seeing me smiling makes you fly.

I want you and you can see,

With any other one I can’t be.

That’s some of what I want,

Maybe I’ll get it, maybe I won’t.

Dreaming Of A Dream

I don’t know exactly what to write I’m having a hard time, breaking up time. So I’m looking for my dreams which I left one day for someone that left me when I loved him the most. Any way I dreamt of a world that’s no like another world I dreamt of a new me that people love and respect like a true person for what I am I dreamt of a smile that I put on people’s faces when they re sad. I’d many dreams but they all mean nothing in this world so I stopped dreaming and now I’ll start living. I so lost in a world like a maze so even if you don’t think you re lost you’ll. What have you dreamt?? What have you give up??? What do you really want???